SPOILER ALERT: This post contains the whole truth and nothing but the truth on how the last week and a half have gone.
Having PCOS and Insulin Resistance is hard. As in VERY hard. The last couple of months I have tried to be positive. I have followed the rules the best I could. I try to look on the bright side and take each day with a new level of faith. But it is hard and I have not been doing well.
Sticking to 110g of carbs a day is pretty hard. Especially when you work in an office where there are free carbs around you everywhere and cafeteria options that are hard to ignore in all their carb filled glory. It is hard to ignore the free bread or tortilla chips on a table when you go out to eat and your friends are enjoying the carby deliciousness. It is hard to not take the easy route with food…so many carb filled options are typically the easiest to get when you are in a rush.
And the ovulation. Every 10-14 days. I mean…come on. The cramps, nausea, and exhaustion have been out of control causing me to crave even more of what I shouldn’t eat.
If all this isn’t enough, I am in a new role at work that is BRAND new to me. While it is exciting to learn something new every day, it is also exhausting. I find myself more insecure than I have been in a long time wondering if what I am doing is right. I am working so hard to please everyone and exceed expectations. All while fighting Insulin Resistance and PCOS.
I wish it would all just go away and I can do what I have done in the past…if one diet doesn’t work, choose another one. But that is no longer an option. Insulin Resistance and PCOS are real which no way around them.
So if I can’t go around these challenges…I need to keep fighting and find a way to go THROUGH the challenges. While the last couple weeks have been so hard, I know I am a fighter and I know I will get healthier. Now time to go meet a friend for dinner and ignore the free bread…
My Carb Breakup 
It sounds like it is a bit of a struggle for you at the moment, but it is also good that you are becoming aware of what is going on for you and also identifying when things are difficult. It is pretty normal I think to struggle to accept that these are life time changes that you need to make and there is a certain amount of grief that goes with that. It is OK to grieve for the loss of bread with dinner and to envy those who can go into a cafe and order anything without thinking about it. It sounds like you need a little self-love right now so that you can start to accept yourself and the ways things need to be for you to be well and healthy. Be gentle and kind with yourself. It gets easier. All the best, Sacha
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Can I encourage you? My niece has PCOS and taking my advice to eat LCHF finally allowed her to ovulate, and get pregnant. She is also IR. Perhaps going lower on your carbs 30-50 range and adding more healthy fats will assist you. Stay strong, I have seen this help two others with PCOS ☺️
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